since i start to twit..my blog had became so dead..haas

can u believe it..our 4yrs anni..we did not celebrate..unlike other normal couples..no good dinner..nothing!! the worst thing is..we quarreled n cold war-ed on the eve..made me totally forgot abt the day >.< if i nv hint him..he dont rmb it too?? hais! :( anw we had cfm our bkk trip next mth..the only thing i can make myself feel better..is to treat it as its the gift frm him..even though he said nothing :(

cant he be more sensative to my actions n to noe my thinkings n my feelings?? im damn angry abt this!!

can i be as fortunate as other girls??

how i wish i can... ... ...

i cant even rmb who n when did someone shouted at me at work
n yet he shouted at me

i cant even rmb clearly who n when i screamed at work
n yes i screamed at him

i dont accept his apology at tat point of time
coz i dont want him to say sorry for the sake of saying sorry

want let him feel guilty n reflect on his fcuking temper
but im not a petty person afterall lahh!

very randomly!!
met up june n iris for dinner at nex on 1aug!!!
few mths nv meet up..
i really feel like as if few yrs did not meet up
really miss my sis so badly!!!
perhaps everyone are having busy schedule
but me saying busy is always an excuse
im damn looking forward for the next one!!

ohhya!!
got to noe something interesting!!
june gonna be my neigbour 5yrs down the road!!
LOL!!
so qiao right??!!
she got fernvale flora n i got fernvale garden
haha iris welcomed me to the "gang-gang" family
the conversation of getting to noe we are future neighour is so funny n amazing!!

finally met her after 1 week
den i noe things happened on the day tat i put her plane!!
blaming me for working so hard
shes alr sad n yet i necglect her
worst!!
i put her plane!!

if i were to meet her tat night
think she wont feel sad so long
n not gg to work for so many days
hais!!
but good tat shes ok now
shes weird!!
so forgivable person
if me
i cant do tat
well
as long as she happy can le lahh
(:

anw
i kept on got bullet these few days
even things im confident im right i oso nv argue back!!
omg!!
im really so different alr!!
LOL!!
haha good luck to me!!
=D

hais..
so boredd in bus alone gg home
she's not been gg work since sat
hope u're fine my friend
(:

hais...
got scolded frm sharon like nobody business
really made me reminds me of louise
but i still like louise more
louise...
scold with no double standards
sharon...
scold WITH double standards
well..
she scold
i accept
coz tats the fact
tats wat she see
yes i nv follow up
i did not fight back
i nv defend myself
coz i noe fight back or being defensive bring me nowhere
so i just keep quiet
thinking back...
when i was a star
audrey n josias like tat scold me
i fight back like nobody business
if just now i want fight back
i can!
but i did not i dont want to
coz she's still my boss afterall
i respect her
hope i will learn aft today's scolding
(:

y is it always me?!!
i feel so out...
hais..

she's not angry with me
she's sad n dont want call me
i did not call her
coz she ask me leave her alone
but im worried for her
hopefully she will call me asap
shit does happens at times
life still goes on
the earth wont stop spinning
cheer up
be happy
im waiting for ur call
gg home tgt with u
gg late night supper with u
:)

hais
its really not easy
be it being 1st asst or scheduler
or im just facing the prob at lp??
u are the one who tell me to grant crew request
else crew commitment survey they will say rubbish
aft i grant the request
u asked me y i grant?
n when i nv grant
crew will always go look for u
n u will ask me to do amendments!!
den for f**k u tell me so much rubbish?!!
y not u just simply tell me wat to do??
hais!!

im not comparing
but i just wana noe frm the bottom of ur heart
did u ever see my hard work?
i dont sense u noe or u even appreciate me
for wat i rmb is scoldings frm u naggings frm u
seems like nothing else frm u

always
my one n only off day
call lah msg lah
asking lah scolding lah blaming lah
i dont find any other reason cant be done
y not just blame urself are just a bunch of f**king lazy mgrs?!!
没有吃过苦的废物!!!

lastly
cant u just tell ur 'gf' tat we got no more crew like last time
stop irritating me
she ask u
u ask her ask me
if i say no??
'plsss.....'
if i say yes???
10fingers pointing n blaming me
wtf right??!!!

hais!!!
i want go open new store lahh!!!

??

hais..
she angry with me??
nv reply my msg de??
this nv happen b4...
:(

mos training :(

hais...doing mos training..
with audrey..my rm...4yrs ago..??
haha..she oso thinking y am i 1st asst today!!
such a naughty n problematic star during thosr days..
ppl will chane de mah..
will grow up n think n mature de wat..

haiya..gonna listen wats she talking le
-.-

bad day..but nice meet up

dinner at swissotel

my last dnd

hi..im calling from ***, can u do me a favour..i got 8cs of sourdough bun..can u ST from me??

i got 43cs!!

ohh ok thanks..bye...

stupid idiot store!!! >.< suan-ed by me

just said felt boring as if not much friends ard me..
someone wadsapp me shockingly!!!
FADILA!!!
call me kakak pendek somemore -.-
which mean sister shorty!!
LOL!!
so random ya!!
as usual..
long time nv meet..
asking to have gathering bla bla bla...
see how lahh..
but i will try to have one de!!

went blading with dear!!
this time is much much better den the previous few times..
haha!!

i find myself so busy?
day in day out..
go work..go home..
wake up..work n home again??
wat else i can do?

i find im so neglected by my friends..
im so like living in the world of mine..
i dont noe how are they doing..
who i have??
only nina..
where ever i go..
she will always nearby me..
:)

i always need a holiday need a break..
but who can i go with??
who is there to accompany me??
sometimes i feel like....
i got no friends.....

went nabit mtg..
saw so many many ppl..
excited!!
hana..irene tay..josias...
wat i can say is..
they shocked to see me there??
LOL!!
a naughty girl 3-5yrs ago..
can be a 1st asst today??
hahaha
one more!!
mariam..
she is still as idiot as b4..
i still hate her as b4!!
saw me...
gave me a "看不起我" de look!!!
hmpf!!!
at least i only took 3yrs to get myself promoted..
she??
10yrs??
=\

i really feel the stress..
the stress of being a 1st asst..
n the stress of being at syed patch..
i want to get out of syed patch soon..
b4 i ...............

hope everyone is fine out there


hais...
im actually not capable of anything..
im just so useless..
sharon went RLP at bkk..
i tot i can take good care of the store n so tat i can gain more respect frm my mgrs..
but no!
i made the store worst!
i blamed myself for everything!
i felt so helpless at tat point of time..
i really dont noe who to turn to..
i really dont noe wat to do!
but i noe i still need to stay strong no matter wat happens..
i felt bad most is coz i did the greatest mistake ever..
i wont forget n i wont forgive myself!
but i got no choice!!
so how?!!
hais!!!
i really felt better aft one slp..
明天会更好？
i hope so too..

yeah yeah!!
i finally got my iphone4 white aft such a damn LONG wait -.-
but its worth it de..
老天不负苦心人 (:
its true ohh..
anw!!
thanks to dear to for getting this for me..
he himself got 1 too..
(:

pls go n take a look at today's (30apr) straits times!

'recruit' front page.

u'll see me there!

surprise!!
heh heh!!

=P


iphone4 white is out ytd!!
I WANT TO GET IT!!!!!!!
its while stocks last!
the most shit thing is i got no same off day with dear these few days!!
he's getting too n he's buying for me!!
lalala~~
=D
1 more shit thing is the stupid m1 dont allow me to waive off the $100 coz i wana recontract at the 19th mth!
just 1 more mth nia!
kaos!!
-.-

trying my very best to blend into.

its very difficult.

as wat i expected.

or even worst.

i want change them better.

the store to be more shiny.

(:

starting from today.

i wana start a new me.

(:

so happy!

had went to select flat with dear!

=D

we were so excited till we went to see the exact location.

we even went ikea went courts for shopping!!

LOLs!!

gan jiong ahh..

excited mah.

really kind of cant wait till 4yrs later.

so looking forward for our very own 爱的小屋!

bleahs!

loves!

<3

new mth.

new position.

new store.

new uniform.

haha.

being 1st asst is not easy.

being 1st asst at LP is more not easy.

i foresee i will have a hard time.

i noe ppl there will hate me if i shout out all my expectations.

i want to stay strong.

i want to have my stand.

i dont care how ppl see me.

as long as im doing the right thing.

pls give me the courage for me to do all these.

felt abit better aft talking to laichoon.

thanks (: